MY AUTHENTIC STORY THROUGH PAIN PART 2 – HOW I CAME OUT ON THE OTHER SIDE

Hello everyone,

This is Aishah Adams again and I am back with the Part 2 of the series I started yesterday.

I help people release pain so they can own their voice & live their best life and I hope this series helps you embrace vulnerability as you journey towards healing and growth.

With every pregnancy came fear and apprehension. Would this be the time I finally carry my child in my arms or would I be left bereft of warmth. I welcomed the knowledge of being pregnant with mixed feelings everytime & it had nothing to do with the labor room; that turned out to be the easiest part of the hurdle except once.

There were countless times I sat by myself and just wept for the beautiful life I once imagined on those dreamy days I had dreamt about what marriage would look like back then. I wept for the mirage of dreams I once had about carrying to term. The life I was now living was a far cry from what I ever dreamt of.

I carried a lot of pain in my heart. So much pain…And there were days it felt like my heart would burst from the pain. The sheer weight of the pain I carried around kept me exhausted a lot and it led to a series of health crisis. However, I always kept up appearances. I played the part of the happy wife & sister. I continued to seek children whilst trying to find a way to keep the marriage.

After several losses, a door closed; a chapter ended.The marriage ended and I had losses in tow, broken friendships, a heart filled with pain, and this time shame was being handed to me on a beautifully decorated platter.

It was time to go and God took me away from that space as a mercy for me even though many others would have thought differently.

Some questions that filled my mind in the accomapnying months following the divorce were: Was this really the life I envisaged? How was I going to move forward from here? Although I was relieved that I didnt have to force myself to smile anymore, there was the societal backlash.

What emotions have come up for you since you started reading this series?
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With Love,
The Mind Doctor💛